so, a lot has happened. I went home to Portland for winter vacation. It was so absolutely fantastic. I am moving back to that place in June. I spent New Years with Chris Vance and his femme pals as well as Charlie. This New Years was so much more amazing than last year. I met this kid Tim at a party we went to. I got pretty drunk but not too beligerant...he was the designated driver. I sure know how to smell out a sober one. I spent a few days with that boy following the first...he was quite amazing if I must say so myself. It was so wonderful to see my sister again...I adore her so much. I got my wisdom teeth pulled on Monday and I look like a chipmunk. I feel better but my face has yet to be socially acceptable so I haven't attended school yet since that day. I was supposed to go out with Stephanie on Saturday but she was vomitting on Beach and Ball so that went downhill. I miss all of you folks...see you soon

Computer class was okay this morning and in English first period my teacher said I am a brilliant writer and the enjoys me in his class, he really does. Right out of that strange accented horses mouth. It was quite nice to take in flattery. I am wearing my polka dot skirt today and it reminds me of Katrina. I drove past Western yesterday and I swear I wanted to go raid and see if she was still at the spot...I drove past during lunch. Anyhow-my stomach is feeling brutally painful and I have one more hour until I go home. <3 loves and such

sondra

Another week in Computer Applications except this week I'm hacking my guts out...I really should quit smoking and Cindy really should've stayed home with her sickness from Cosmo. this week. Yesterday was a minor anniversary with Evan...so of course we could not get along. I feel bad because all of this stress from school and hair and home is making me a massive bitch and he prys for answers and feels the wrath. Poor guy, didn't know what he was getting into when he hooked this bitch fish of the sea. He slept over on Tuesday which was perfect...even though he was talking to me while music played and I was asleep. I'm really sorry Evan, I was just very tired. Forgive that. Never in my life have I had dark circles from lack of sleep and I must say this week they are progressing nicely in facial ugliness. I miss Katrina and Christina. My school this year is lacking hilariousness and when I brought my dollhead home last night I swear I laughed so hard just imagining the funny things we could say about her ugliness. You both should come in tomorrow to my cosmo. school and get free beauty services from me...because I miss you both ...like a lot. <3 And if anyone else wants to come in and get free nonsense done...please call me because 8 hours of dollheadness gets really lame. I'm doing manicures and pedicures this week...and if you want a scalp massage and shampoo. Just anything so I can ge t my hours.

ONLY 1550 hours to go.

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

Dear God,
This girl is oblivious.

I LOVE YOU ALL

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my parental units are in Las Vegas until Monday so I am therefore watching my lovely new sister, Sarah. I am highly bored due to her having a more vivid social life at age 12 than I do at this moment. She is out on a Saturday and I am stuck at home chain smoking and wishing Evan didn't have to work so I could get out of this house. I am extraordinarily tired despite waking up at noon. Anyhow...I hate to bore you all...but call if you also have no social life on the first Saturday of the school year. I could use the company.

<3
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I am in my computer class and I am extremely tired from a long, long, long, night. It's not a sleepy tired, it's a I haven't eaten a meal in 2 weeks-exhaustion tired. This classroom is freezing and quite frankly I would rather be curled up in my bed right now with my meow meow and nothing more than very little. I want to be at peace again with all the nonsense in Oregon, however, I have a heart and have no choice in what I am feeling right now. It is far too soon to predict if this is all a coming that will soon go, but we shall see as time progresses. My birthday came and went with haste and it was a peaceful day that my 2 better parts of me made as miniscule as they could for my sake...it was actually quite wonderful if I must be honest. I am so tired that my eyes are stinging, and I didn't wear much make-up today so that is my only logicl explanation. I start cosmetology on Tuesday and I am jazzed. I need a haircut like you would never believe. I think a good re-touch on my hair could ease my not-so-posi feelings. I hate crying like a lunatic on a cell phone in the grocery store...my eyes are exhausted and I think I cried out my larynx last night...I swear to you...I probably did.

Farewell for Today...
I miss you all...I honestly can say I probably do miss everyone who reads this. Loves and such,

Sondra

so the day after tomorrow is my birthday and i cannot wait for once. i mean after all, after saturday this year will be long gone and i am absolutely looking forward to leaving it behind. anyhow...my sister remembered my birthday and that completes my life right now because i miss her oh so dearly and this is year #2 without her and it is the pits. thank you ciara dear for the early happy birthday it meant a lot regardless of sincere rememberance. i leave tomorrow for palm springs and a bitchenly wonderous birthday weekend...and i will be back to reality on monday...so you can get a hold of me then. perhaps i will post photographs of the charade when i return. <3 until then

i am eating rice and it is delicious. today i ran a million errands for cosmetology school and evan and i went and looked at rings while we were out and about. he is so grand, he really is. life was happy today...i even saw messages from katrina and that made my day. my birthday is approaching swiftly and i am minorly dreading it for various reasons. for those who missed out-i have a new email address: soysondra@aol.com

anyhow...i love love love you all

xoxo
sondra

until my birthday. i honestly cannot say who in their heart knows that or will remember that. this means that katrina's b-day is coming as well...perhaps i will call her and wish her a happy birthday and tell her i miss and love her times a million and i wish i still went to western so i could walk to 2nd with her every single day. i find myself missing my sister a lot these days and someone else who was my best friend this time last year. i guess a lot really can change in a year and maybe i should be thanking god or somebody for that but in a way a part of me wishes it was one week ago last year so i would have never left portland. you can't help but wonder how differently things may have turned out. in 10 days i will begin thinking of resolutions for new years- i am the only person who is dumb enough to take 4 months out of my life to think of promises to break...but it's nice to feel like i have a plan for something even if it's something really goddamn dumb. this time last year i was curled up endlessly on a couch crying until i made myself sick-that's how badly i missed oregon. i stayed up late wasting minutes with one person that helped me through every hard time until march. i cannot help but also wonder...who will help me this year when i'm falling to pieces? and i find myself wishing some days that my old best friend was here to catch me when i fall and send me a birthday card that was meant for 17 and 51.

i hope your worlds are improving
<3
sondra